Oh well. Kung dito ko sisimulan ang entry na ito, malamang di ko rin ito matatapos at magiging draft lamang ito. Coz for some reasons, it’s so hard to explain. Everytime random thoughts flood my mind and I wanna write about them, my emotions get in the way. Idk. And tonight, muntik ko na ulit hindi ituloy ito. Madaling-araw na kasi at may pasok pa ako later. And jusko yung emotions ko, intense na naman. But I’m guessing, this time, it is PMS. Hahaha
So I’ll just write about my Lolo who’s celebrating his first birthday in heaven. I miss him. We miss him.
He’s one of my favorite people in the universe. And it breaks my heart everytime I realize I can no longer hug him. But still, he surely has his ways of cheering me up.
Last week, I found about my blood type. And boom, parehas kami ni Panday.
And that’s enough to put a smile on my face.
Happy birthday Panday! Salamat po, sa’yo ko pala namana itong dugo kong positibo.
Honestly, maraming beses na akong nagmura sa utak ko. Pero if I’m not mistaken, thrice ko palang na-voice out yung t*ng-i*a. First, when I found out that my bestfriend passed away. Second, when I got emo because I got bitten by the dog we were training for PSY140 (Psychology of Learning). It happened during a bad, bad time that’s why I kinda lost my mind. I even wrote a blog about it here! Hahaha And the third one was last Saturday, when I read my father’s reply to me.
Natigilan ako dahil kung di ako nagkakamali, this was the first time na natawag nya akong “anak.” Ang drama pakinggan pero wala e, it seemed like there was a space in my heart waiting for that word from him. And when he finally said (texted) it, napasabi ako ng malutong na tang-ina while shaking my head. (Teka nawalan ng sense yung pagcensor ko kanina) Hahaha Mukha akong sira that moment. But I remember how it made me smile.
Okay na. Okay na ako sa ganito. Hanggang ganito na lang tayo pero okay na rin, Pa. Basta safe ka. At masaya. At basta maging tatay ka sa kanila. Basta di sila lumaki nang may bubog na tulad ng sa akin. At basta okay ka. Okay na.
During my senior year in high school, I had to live in my Lolo’s house because my Mom undergone an operation. Mom and I lived with my Lolo, two Titas, my uncle, my cousins and my nephews.
It was kind of difficult to adjust, at first. However, the care and love that I and Mom got from the people there were enough to make us feel alright.
And one happy thing about having that experience is getting the opportunity to interact with them, closer than ever.
And I remember, whenever I watch basketball games (PBA) to support my team, Talk ‘N Text Tropang Texters (Go #TnTNation), I was always being teased by my Tito (San Miguel/Petron fan) and my Lolo (fan of any teams playing against my team). They always tell me that we’re gonna lose, my team is weak, and other stuff just to make fun of me. And that became our bonding.
And now, they are both gone. On October 28, my Lolo passed away. Last December 16, mom called me and told me about my uncle dying.
It feels horrible to lose them both this year, this Christmas.
And how I wish we could still do our bonding.
Tay, Papa Tony, wherever you are, thanks for being my fathers. You are both great dads. By the way, from heaven, watch TnT Tropang Texters get the championship this cup. 😜 I miss you both. I love you both.
These were muddling up my mind these past few weeks.
Last Thursday night, I had an emotional breakdown. That moment, I knew I have to go and save myself. So I said goodbye to the world for a while. Little did I know, goodbye to the world could just mean hello beach! Yup, Vitamin Sea amidst hell week is part of the formula for the remedy. Thanks much to Ate Dimple who made this possible. ❤
New place. Strangers. UPLB alumnus’ POV on how to graduate (My ate’s friend happened to be a ChemEng graduate from Elbi!) Family. Camera. A good book. (The Alchemist) Music. Bed.
Call me an escapist – not so good kind of person to become but it’s how people like me cope with unbearable things sometimes. Because it’s not about merely forgetting your problems. It’s about finding a way to breathe and hopefully, to redeem yourself.
Date: September 13, 2015
Location: Pinto Art Museum, San Roque, Antipolo, Rizal
Last September, Tita Ellen invited me to pay a visit to their home in Marikina and celebrate Neil’s birthday. Neil is my cousin who I met (deeper) in UPLB. We became closer as we get to know each other better. Sayang nga, munitk ko na s’yang maging legit na Brod. Huehue Nonetheless, I really consider him as my long lost li’l bro. 🙂
Anyway, I needed that introduction because he is the reason why a wish of mine came true — I have explored the Pinto Art Museum! He told Tita that I want to go there and so we did. I was really really touched. I never imagined we would have moments like that as cousins, as family. Feeling ko nga, birthday ko ang ni-celebrate eh. 😊
On Sunday afternoon, we went to Antipolo. We arrived at the museum at 5PM. Since it closes at 6PM, we had a limited time to explore the museum. And guess what. It rained and I didn’t bring my umbrella. -_- Well, nevertheless, I can say that it was an awesome and wonderful experience because of the amazing, artistic, and great paintings, sculptures, and scenery the place has to offer.
Sadly, I left Drew (my camera) in Elbi so I just captured everything that awed me through my phone’s cam. (No names of the painters and sculptors, my bad! But I really salute them! 👍)
One unforgettable thing about Pinto is the Undelivered Project. Inspired by the love story of Leonora Rivera and Jose Rizal, it lets you write an anonymous letter addressed to that someone who, for some reasons, you didn’t end up with.
Ofcourse, I tried it. And… Huhu.
I “let it remain undelivered”. </3
Pinto Art Museum is definitely one place I won’t regret revisiting. I like the variations of moods, ambiance, “feels” and “hugots” of every art featured there. Not to mention the presence of historical elements in some of the stations. 😍 Sulit, uulit-ulitin at hahanap-hanapin talaga! And in fact, I even thought of having my own wedding reception there. Haha! But seriously, yes I want to do it there because I can imagine how awesome it would be. So cool, so heartwarming (especially if you have fascination with art), so delightful, so puzzling, so artsy, so calming at the same time exciting, so… special. So me! And malay natin, “so him” rin. 😊 Chaaaar LOL
But ofcourse, at the end of the day, the highlight of this weekend escapade is them.
Thanks-a-bunch Latina Family! I’m so glad that we’re given an opportunity to be closer and connected more than ever.
And thank you, Neil.
I found a coffee/spriteaaa/storytelling/music/kalokohan buddy and a family (legit by blood 😁) in Elbi. 🙂